Why do I like things that look worn and tattered? I guess it gives me the feeling of being worn in and well loved. I like my men rough around the edges and friends that have gone through some shit. I don't like things polish, glossy, perfect, or ideal. Through my life, I always strived to be different and searched for people, things, and lifestyles that are unusual. And as for flowers, I love them best home grown and with one foot halfway out the door.
I was looking for hellebores the other day to make a flower sash with (for a tin type session I was doing that day with my friend, Maxine Sferra) and remembered that a friend of mine (Tara Lynn Butterworth) has some in her garden. I messaged her asking if I could pick some, and the sweet angel she is, said to go for it. She apologized for the state her garden was it, but it was completely perfect to me. I went to her house to find a garden in the midst of winter, with small signs of spring coming. Leaves that had holes from bugs, hellebores with a bit of dirt on them still, and foliage halfway dead. It was the perfect arrangement of colors and such a rich story of the season at the moment. These are plants and flowers one can not find in a garden, only at a home.
I've also been mixing dried and fresh flowers a lot. For sometime for some reason I kept them separated and finally had a mental breakthrough that I could blend them. Completely opens up my color options, I love how muted dried flowers are, and they make a great transition color. These aren't dried, but some things, like the grape vine, is definitely in its dormant winter stage. There's something meaningful to me about incorporating a whole spectrum of life in flower arrangements and creations. I honestly prefer dying roses over a perfect bundle of fresh roses any day.
Am I crazy to think I would want my wedding flowers to look like this? Beat up, dirty, and like leftover dinner for a few bugs? Haha.
When I was younger I would always cut up my t-shirts. My mom never understood it, she would always ask, "Why do you ruin your perfectly nice clothes, you look like a homeless person." I guess I've moved on from t-shirts to flowers.
(Oh, side note, floral frog bowl is by Notary Ceramics.)